ncm 205

what can i say. ncm 205 is draining me of everything i have. first, i am constantly on the move due to our primary nursing/elective duty which is purely based in malaybalay. so, i am 4 or 5 days out. i am more like a boarder in my own home. and when i am home, i am filled with demanding subject that needs constant concentration. guided review is a subject that must not be disregarded and the lecture is equally demamding due to demanding c.i.s. i don't know, nursing right now is really draining me. i hardly go out and just have fun. let alone, sleep with decent hours. i am always thinking of requirements and exam and quizzes.

when is this all gonna end? well, thank God its almost OCTOBER. i can't wait. finally, i am gonna finish nursing. it will truly be a blessing when i wear my toga and finally receive my diploma. the first thing i'm gonna do when i graduate, is to have a long vacation. i can't wait.

summer spent in class

yep, the supposedly best summer of my life. all my planning about just doing nothing, waking up late and just be a slob. is all gone down the drain. why? well i'll tell you why, an F happened.

my ncm 204 subject decided to fail me and here i am. wasting away my long awaited summer vacation in classrooms with terror professors and still unsure if i will pass this time. i hate this.

i know, it is my fault because i didn't study harder. i was more keen on going out with friends, and watching television than opening my medical-surgical book. i was absent most of the time. but, ofcourse, neglect would mean a failure in nursing and that i learned the hard way.

while, i am spending my time in classrooms, i just can't help thinking of what my friends are doing right now. where they are spending their summer. how they are spending it.

hmmhmmhmm... arrrghh....

NBSB for 21 years. HELP!!!

why am i still single????? is it because i am not looking? or am i still immature to even consider in having a relationship? you know what, i really don't have an answer to all my questions. can someone help me.

it's not like i am complaining or anything (well, maybe i am), but i am already 21 and i am still single. i am kinda thinking at the moment that this is my destiny. or that i will be like my 3 aunts, OLD MAIDS. and that thought is not comforting at all. i actually want to have a family. i want to have a husband that i love and loves me back. kids that looks adorable and i love very dearly. i definitely don't want to be an old maid.

some told me that i am still young. that there is still a lot of time for me to find someone special. but i kinda feel that if i don't find someone now, i am never gonna find anyone at all. recently, this has been in my mind and i don't like it one bit. is God still preparing the best guy for me? i centainly hope so.

people might think i am lame, with this topic in mind. it's just that i am not getting any younger and i feel like i have been deprived with this magical thing called love, long enough for me to think that there might be something wrong with me. oh, i don't know. only time could tell but i am still hoping and praying that i will find the right guy for me.

i am so lame. sheesh. till next time of my whinings. see yah

keeping up to date

Well, where do I start? Hmmm.... I guess I’ll start during the time I failed PHARMACOLOGY.

That definitely did it for me. I was so down not because i failed myself but because I failed my parents. They were expecting that I would finish nursing in just 4 years and that I would graduate in Xavier University Ateneo de Cagayan (a very prestigious school in CDO). But I guess I’ve shattered that dream of theirs. I have been depressed for like the whole duration of our summer break. But of course, I can't stay that long. I have to move on with my life. I have even considered changing course as long as I graduate as an atenean. But of course, my mom won't let me because after all, I have spent the last 3 years working my ass off in nursing. She won't let me so I have only one option and that is to find another school. Of course I was reluctant at first because I really like going to school in XU. I have a history with it. I found my closest friends there and I really love it there, maybe because most of my cousins finished their studies there and also my dad graduated there. So, I was very sad when I processed my paper to leave ateneo and find another school. I lost my will to finish college during those trying times, maybe because I failed and another would be embarking to a different school. Adjusting again and finding new friends.

That when I came to Liceo de Cagayan. I never really liked the school at first. My mom and I just went there just to ask about the school and what my options were if I do go to that school, but of course I wasn't planning to go there. I just went there because my mom forced me. My mom can be very bossy sometimes. So, we went there and as I was there just standing and very disinterested with the school. What can I say, I’m pro atenean. Hehehe. Anyways, on with the story, I was there standing, letting my mom do the talking. When I saw my fellow ateneans also are transferring because of failure in their subjects. Like me. So, they told me that they are processing their paper so that they can transfer and that I should also do the same. So, right there I saw some hope that maybe adjusting there won’t be so bad because I have them along. So, what was supposedly just an inquiry, turned to be the actual day I transfer schools. Luckily, my mom brought all the stuff I needed to transfer. So, after that everything is history.

I am now currently going to school in Liceo de Cagayan. It’s been a year since I transferred and I have never looked back. Right now, I am happy with my life. I found new friends and of course all the transferees are good friends. We somehow have a special bond, and of course I haven’t forgotten my old friends. Now, I am enjoying life and my grades are not in a danger zone as we speak (not yet..hehe). I guess, this is a blessing in disguise for me. Maybe, I am not cut out for a very high standard, hectic schedules, and harsh C.I.s. Maybe I am more of a chill type of environment. Whatever it is, I am grateful. I can’t complain, after all, I am not the one paying my tuition.

So that’s it, that’s how my life was for the past year. My next blog would be about my life in Liceo. Till then, write some comments about this blog. Thanks.

disturbed sleep pattern

recently these past few days, i have been in a sleepless state. wanna ask why? well, lets count them down....

5. watching late night shows. ( definately my choice)
4. reading the latest HP book ( at least i enjoyed reading it)
3. hanging out at my friend's house and watching dvd till morning ( again my choice and also i enjoyed it)
2. made a psyc case study along with my groupmates due to time constraint ( coz we THOT that the paper was due the next day....bummer for us for even thinking that.)

and the number 1 reason why i have sleepless nights.....

1. making 2 case studies individually. the other one, computerized while the other is handwritten (DEFINATELY NOT MY CHOICE!!!)

i hate this feeling

-sigh-

harry potter 7 mania

yes, i am a HARRY POTTER fan and i love the latest installment of J.K. Rowlings well-loved book, the Harry Potter franchise. I was one of the first few persons who was waiting, literally, at the bookstore, awaiting for it to open. Waiting for it, the last installment will be mine.

I read it so fast that by the end of the day, I was done. The last installment was AMAZING, THRILLING, GUT WRENCHING, ACTION PACKED BOOK. My heart was pumping so hard the whole time I was reading it.

So, what's my verdict of the latest Harry Potter?

In a scale of 1-10, and 10 as the highest......I rate it with a 12. I just loved how the book was finished. How many died in the book but still you feel that their death was not in vain because of how the outcome. How Harry was stepping up to finish Lord Voldemort. How Harry, despite the many obstacles, still rise triumphantly from the dangers that has come his way.

I loved how J.K. Rowling finish the whole book. She really is a good writer. I'm sure, she will be sad in finally leaving Harry Potter behind. Sad in finally the seven books is complete. How I wish there would be more of the Harry Potter books, but I know it's just wishful thinking.

So, for the Harry Potters books..I bid them farewell. Well, only until I read them again. HEHE

its been a long time since....

its been a long rime since i posted in my blog. oh well, i cant turn back time can i? i'll just have to make up for it.......


on my next ENTRY....hehe



see yah.....

...ughhhhhhmmmm....

I FAILED PHARMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!